I've got a lot to say so this might be a long one.

I have not been the best friend, but I have taken enough notice to see one thing. A group of friends, that has been completely abolishes, as though 2012 came early for our friendship. It's a wonder how that happened. We all used to have such common ground, such presence with each other, and now we really mean nothing. Being one of the farthest from where we originally were, I really have to wonder.

I've heard stories, watched tears, and cried myself to sleep because I have ground these thoughts through my head wondering what could have possibly happen. Are we really too far from each other to make a simple interface, hold a decent conversation, and do something beyond remembering all that was good. I can still remember back to 7th grade when I weaseled my way into the group. Then 8th came around, and that's when Corryn came into the picture.

You think that we would have all progressed, when really we have gone back. We took steps back, and the excuse I see is exactly what Corryn said, we grew up? Did we really? I don't see that, I think we kind of got smaller, that our worlds became wrapped around different groups, and our own interests. Things became a limited tunnel view, too small to see that our friends were fallen away.

And now we are broken, apart, and silenced. I guess I would ask what we could do to fix that, but something tells me that not much can truly be done. I wish though. Our fates are decided, and I think that's the saddest part of all. Especially, because we had a choice. We were blind to each other, and as our awareness comes over us we see what we have done.


Now I have one last thing to ask,
Should we be happy, that all this turned out this way, is it really for the best?